True to Life

So, today I got the note that, "I'm playing it too nice. I need to be meaner."

I love being in the imaginary world. You get to do just about anything, but separating it from real life is really difficult. So, when I have to play someone who is always cruel to the other character, it's hard to keep myself separate. I personally being intentionally cruel, but Van's Sister always feels she is in the right. I should be able to keep them separate, right?

I love my scene with CB. We spend the whole time in a constant state of trying to maintain power over each other. I'm supposed to look for any opportunity to push him down, to be "dominant" on so many words, but the actor playing CB is so nice and funny and we have so much fun. But I have to be meaner and tougher. Grrrrrr.

I love The Peanuts. I truly do. But now, the fact that I love Charlie Brown is hindering my ability to be Lucy. Is everything always this complicated? Does the imaginary world have a clear-cut door? What's the best way to stay separate from what's real and what's make believe?

Because I lost that distinction many years ago...

So long, farewell, auf wiedersehen, adieu!